Okay – in reality it’s green somewhere else. Lots of somewhere else’s, actually-but not here. We are at 45* for the second day in a row, but we still have tons of snow needing to melt; the snow is pretty rotten and not worth much except to remind us we don’t have green or outdoor growth yet. This tree is actually in Washington DC, and what it looked like the beginning of last October.
I used the above picture though because it kind of represents life — the single tree is like each of us, all the branches are representative of all the things we are involved in and the leaves are the activities or to-do list of all that has to be done for each part of our life. For example:
This is just a quick idea, not well executed but “good enough”. It portrays the immediate visual in my head. Even though I am a single person, I am grounded in Christ. {I’m not in any way representing my life in Christ in this picture — He is the core of my life.} I’m reflecting the branches as the many hats we so often hear about. I read an article this morning – on the Home Educating Family Blog. It was written by Heidi St. John, “That Girl“… what really struck me was a conversation between her husband & herself where he stated he missed her and wondered if she was “in there somewhere”?
I don’t have a husband to ask questions, but I question myself. This is actually something I’ve been struggling with lately. “Why do I keep questioning everything I’m doing, getting lots done, and still feeling frustrated?” I have to wonder if it is because I’m looking for “That Girl” {who I was before [what/when]?} I’ve only been discovering who “that Girl” might be in the last several years – after being a wife and becoming an ex. wife; mom to full-time-sole-parent-single mom; homeschool mom; full-time student to not; stay-at-home with lots of time mom to stay-at-home-work-from-home-starting-a business-from-home mom. Needless to say – I’m still figuring it out. BUT, what I realized while reading the article — I have a responsibility to nurture the woman God made me to be, to nurture the creating, house project, solitude is good side of me. Not just the practical, make it all fit, get it done side. I have almost page long to-do lists for each aspect of life — while I do see progress, too often as soon as progress is made on one, there are 10 more things to add to the list. I have an interesting next couple days – the end of March brings many deadlines, since March 31st is a Saturday – that actually means tomorrow is the deadline. Then, after the deadline I have 6.5 hours on Saturday that will be just me. So weird. I do believe I will come home and sew. I’ve had lots of time to figure this out, but I feel selfish for wanting to just immerse myself in sewing projects.all.by.myself(!) and do so many things I always want to do but never make the time to get around to.
So, on that note – I’m off to learn InDesign because Saturday I get to sew! 😀 (now that I’ve written it down, it really makes me happy to look forward to — absolutely no “have to do” items in my thoughts for Saturday)