**I don’t like facebook.  I feel it fosters the ache of loneliness in people – because so many are sharing and nobody is listening.  I believe I’ve posted about this before, it tends to be one of my “soapboxes”.  There is too much spewing of momentary thought and feeling without accountability.  You can’t know who a person really is when you’re just reading specific chosen snippets of thought.  We are made for relationship, real relationship – heart to heart, face to face.  We weren’t created for virtual relationships.  Now, don’t get me wrong – I believe we can have very meaningful virtual relationships, we just can’t have only virtual relationships.**  {stepping off soapbox now}

Ironically – in my mind don’t put blogs in the same classification – even though they are a virtual relationship as well.  I guess because you can’t fake it as long and posts are more deliberately thought out.  You see a more real side of a person through their blog – what drives them to write, how they write about life’s experiences, etc.  As time goes on – readers can sense the writer’s heart, whether they are insincere, down, or encouraged about something.

So, on that note….  Donna from Funky Junk Interiors put out a challenge last week – pick out a scary thing in life that we’ve been wanting to do but have numerous reasons {excuses} not to do, and do it within the week.   I wouldn’t classify this in the status of a dream want to do…but of necessity.  And it scares me.

What is that big, scary thing that I’ve been putting off & needed the nudge to do? It’s actually pretty simple…facebook for my blog – I have had a personal facebook account for several years, I just don’t use it.  I got it when I was a youth group leader to communicate with my kids, since they’ve all graduated I login when I want to message someone, or they message me.  So basically, I’m dead weight on facebook.  Is that too weird?  Are there others of you who understand what I’m saying?

However, because I blog (and in general spend way too much time online) I see the benifits, and so many people having fun and enjoying more day-to-day life friendships/relationships with their blog friends.  I tend to sit on the outskirts, the sidelines, and watch &/or listen in crowds in real life – no different really in blogging.  I’ve been on the sidelines for a while.  To me, posting a status update on facebook is too much like getting up on stage and commanding attention (how is this different on a blog?  I don’t know, other than you choose to come see me rather than me forcing conversation).  I guess I extend that “okay’ness” to a blog related facebook.  Again, only those who really want to be there will.

So, I started a facebook for my blog a while back….but didn’t make it public.  I got frustrated trying to figure out if when I post on the blog facebook will everyone on my other facebook account see it — I don’t want them too.  I feel as if I’ve intruded into others’ privacy when I see every article, you tube, pin to pinterest, or a conversation between people that should be private on facebook.  But I see so many other blogs’ talk about facebook – you guys have made it all look so enticing, I want to join the fun……{can you tell I’m scared to death here?}…. I’m stalling.and rambling.big time.  *deep breathe*

Okay, keep breathing…I’m trying to talk myself into writing this – committing myself to it.  Honestly, this is stupid, I’m teary from fear! Ugh…


This is the thing — I want to participate with other blogs, with like minded blogger-friends.  Not broadcast everything I’m doing, looking at, or reading to everyone who knows me (or my family) personally — so many of my real-life friends don’t blog or homeschool, so they don’t want to necessarily see/read the things I do.  To do it anyway was too much like standing up in the middle of a seated crowd and screaming to get attention – for me.

So – my facebook & pinterest are now “public”.  *phew*  I did it.

Actually, I can not lie – in the end I accidentally published the facebook page.  I clicked on what I thought was a ‘learn more’ link, but it published the page. — so ha! the joke’s on me.  All that and no computer melt down or large crashing sound to signal it’s published, or I did something wrong.  Now what do I do?

I have to explain about the pinterest account – for some reason when I originally tried to sign up it kept rejecting my facebook login…so I had to start a Twitter account so I could have Pinterest.  Every variation of my name I could think of was already in use, so I’m Alaskamom.  I just tried changing the username of my Pinerest, but it can only be 15 characters and my blog name is 17.  I didn’t want to re-start with new pin boards, so I am linking to my existing account.  You, my reader-friends, please, if you’re so inclined – go find me, so I can know who you are.

Next on my list…get this blog moved over to my new domain, and figure out those cute buttons I see everywhere for facebook & Pinterest.  …okay, here goes.  I’m going to hit publish…maybe.

Well, if you’re actually reading this – I finally did it! {sigh}, why are some simple things, so incredibly difficult?  Thank you for walking with me through this.