As I’ve already put “out there”, I have faced a trial or two – as we all have. Honestly, I haven’t always understood the concept of “Considering it all joy”. I think I’m beginning to understand a tiny bit though – it’s kind of like lining up the idea of understanding the value of the gift of salvation.
Until I choose to look at the depravity of my sin;
confess with my mouth, “Jesus is Lord”; and
believe in my heart God raised him from the dead,
I can’t be saved. (Romans 10:9)
Until I experience trials,
I can’t understand joy in-spite of my circumstances.
Until I’m at my lowest and most broken place,
I can’t understand how His grace is enough.
Until I am spent and completely weak,
I can’t understand the strength of His power – in me.
I look forward to seeing the evidence of perseverance in my life,
I want to be complete, lacking nothing.
Only in Him is this possible!
I realize I said I’d be reflecting on our single parent life. While most of these posts haven’t been specifically about being a single parent, they are a bit of explanation, the background to our family, where I’m coming from, it’s hard to get these reflections written down.
The verses I share with you are the foundations I cling to, photos I’ve taken:
– when my children were littles,
– when they were middles,
– when they were high schoolers and
– especially now, when I have one in college and one in high school.
Not a day goes by I don’t fully rely on my Heavenly Father to get us through.
Day 4 & Day 5 were the first time I’ve put several of those statements in writing. I mistakenly believed it was more honoring to keep my mouth shut. I found it more emotionally trying to get the words out than I expected. I have to work hard at getting the memories from “those” years to come up. It may take a day or two for me to “get back to it”. My story, these words, have acted as a plug for far too long now, but I chose to have a reason to keep writing. I’m so glad I made the commitment to writing for 31 Days!